sometimes the unexpected just shits on you, and you have a panic moment. and then there are other times where you don't think anything can surprise you anymore, and you're wrong. but you're too numb to emotionally breakdown again.
even though people and events can sometimes make you lose faith in humanity, and you don't really understand how or why, there is always another side that hides behind the self-created shadows that haze your eyes. one that isn't a pure white light.  clad in an array of colors, it can easily be missed among the grays your traumatized emotions only seek. but it is there all the same. and sometimes knowing that is enough to reinvest your faith in.